One thing he hated, which I feel is wrong on his part is, he expects me to talk to him and only him when I am on phone with him, which is not possible at times. And the only thing which pisses him off happened while I was on a walk, he was trying to speak to me and I kept talking to my friend with whom I got to walk every night. But he was quite normal, I guess he didn't want to fight as we were about to talk after a long time. Finally I said. " bolo sarkar", even my mood was fine seeing him quite and calm. Sarcastically he confirmed, "ME?", I smiled and said, " yes baba you",
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
A girl after break up
One thing he hated, which I feel is wrong on his part is, he expects me to talk to him and only him when I am on phone with him, which is not possible at times. And the only thing which pisses him off happened while I was on a walk, he was trying to speak to me and I kept talking to my friend with whom I got to walk every night. But he was quite normal, I guess he didn't want to fight as we were about to talk after a long time. Finally I said. " bolo sarkar", even my mood was fine seeing him quite and calm. Sarcastically he confirmed, "ME?", I smiled and said, " yes baba you",
Sunday, October 9, 2011
"HAPPY ENDING"
Sunday, February 14, 2010
Dear _______,
There is a reason I am writing this letter, and on this day, you know, 14th Feb. I wanted to tell you many things, just talk to you, spend time with you and just be with you. But I never got to do all that. You weren’t available for all this because of many reasons, friends, family, personal reasons. But forget it, I am writing this because as I said I didn't get time to tell you what I feel, what I feel for you.
The thing is, I have started liking you, or rather being honest to myself, ‘I love you’. I don’t know you would believe me or not, probably not and I know why. You would think about my past, won’t you? And the girls in my life, I agree I had them in my life; I was involved with them, but you know what? I never thought at that time we would break up. I really never thought of it. But, we couldn't make it, there were reasons, situations, we had to break up, I never thought of cheating on them, believe me, I was true, you would even think do ‘we’ have future together? We have, trust me, we have.
I am 24 now, I have a job in my hand, I am no more that college going guy, who was immature and didn’t know what was is doing. I am now a guy who knows what he wants and what he is up to. This is not exactly a letter, but, these are the sentences I wanted you hear from me. I know what I am doing, trust me. You make me happy. I am not sure what am I writing, I mean I am sure, 100% sure, what I am doing, I mean with you and me but I am not sure what am I writing, hope you understand. Do you? . On this special day of love I am asking you, will you be my valentine? I want to be with you, I love you, I will never ever hurt you, I will keep you happy, always, and I will make sure there is smile on your face, lifelong. Baby, I love you and I want to marry you of course not now, don’t panic, but yeah somewhere in future, whenever you are ready. I want you to be my life partner.
This is not a joke or a silly prank, this is real, I .....
God !!!!!
I just pray to god you believe me.
And I m telling you too, believe me, I love you and will always do.
The long lasting love, I was never so sure in my life before like I am now.
Trust me.
Love you
Swaraj
Saturday, February 6, 2010
What am I suppose to do ?
How can I get her out of my mind? How should I do it? It is getting very difficult for me. We had a discussed and a satisfactory break up, well no break up satisfactory, but yeah, we were okay with it. Even I was, till the day I met her, 6 months after the break up, we met as friends, but when she left....
Man what is this? This is not fair; this shouldn’t be happening with me. Is this obvious? Does this happen with everyone? I am not able to sleep at nights, whenever I close my eyes, her innocent and beautiful face appears, I just visualize her smiling at me, she teasing me in her typical cute ways, hitting me, winking at me, blowing air at my face.
I want to be normal, sleep normally; rather I would love to watch ghosts and monsters instead of her beautiful, cute, sexy, mesmerizing, heavenly, gorgeous, hypnotizing face, whenever I close my eyes. I would not mind that, not at all.
Every song I hear, may it be in Hindi, English, Marathi or even Spanish, (Spanish because language isn’t the bar), I relate the song to her and start missing her. It’s been nearly 12 hours and I have not spoken to her, not even she has sent me a single SMS (text), and these stupid radio stations are continuously playing stupid love songs, damn you RJs. Useless buggers don’t have a heart.
What should I do? We separated for a reason, and that reasons still exists. It is like I can’t be with her and will die if I am not. I don’t even know what is she thinking? Is she missing me the way I do? I hope not, because this is hell, and I can’t see her like that. I shouldn't have met her at the first place. This sucks. Love is just meant for screwing you or may be just half reached love like this.
The name I gave to my blogging account is “The Heart-Mind Connection”, where the hell is it now? Heart wants her, wants her badly and mind thinks practically and has given a solid reason why I shouldn’t be with her, damn you 'my mind'.
What am I suppose to do?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
THE AGREEMENT ENDS TODAY
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
13
I don’t know how are you going to react after reading this one, but I am writing what I felt when I was in
And then a funny but a real incident started. We had two connected rooms, in one, were my mom and dad and in another were me and my sister. Our room was the fun house, everything started on the thirteenth morning while we were in last night's sleep in
Someone was taking our blankets off us, and this didn’t happen once, this happened a lot of time and surprisingly with both of us, this just cannot be the co incidence, right? And not only taking it off but also scratching my feet as if trying to wake me up. But fortunately, I was a sleeping like hell and didn’t wake up to find out that I am in real hell and that to in my own hotel room, but yes, I could feel the scratching. I asked my mom and dad in the morning that if they were doing that, but that the answer was a straight no.
Some how we made it till gate C-31 in time or rather on time, but we had to run a lot, almost more than half a kilometer. The KL airport is very very big. We reached Chennai, and then to Mumbai, now I was feeling better, people around me were talking in Hindi and Marathi felt like I am at home. Feeling better for one more reason that the 13th day of the month had passed, just few more hours to go. We boarded the flight to